Why I am not somebody else?
Why cant I be like them?
Why must I be like this?
Why I dont have anything they have?
Why3!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aku nak sgt jadi mcm org lain. Boleh keluaq dgn kawan2, boleh pegi bercuti dgn diorang. But my family never allowed me to do that.
For them, I cant do that. I cant do this. Why? Because Im still a teen. Im still not working.
Kekadang rasa tension sgt2. Duduk rumah and doing nothing.
Bukan nya bila keluar dgn kawan2 aku nak bebas sana sini dgn lelaki.
Aku tau hukum hakam. Aku tau batas2 aku as a muslim.
Ya Allah. Bila laa aku nak kahwin. Hanya dengan kahwin ja aku blh keluar dr sangkar ni. Aku rasa mcm kena kurung jaa. Bkn nya aku nak ckp yg aku tk suka duduk rumah. Tapi aku sorang. Kak aku dah kahwin. Tinggal aku jaa. Handphone jadi peneman. Dah tu bila main handphone, ckp aku keja kelebek fon memanjang. Serba tak kena ja hidup aku ni!
Aku hidup atas dasar untuk memuaskan hati org lain. Menjaga hati perasaan org lain.
Sedangkan hati perasaan aku tak pernah ada siapa kisah.
Saturday, 8 February 2014
Friday, 7 February 2014
Im back!
Almost a week aku tak update blog aku.
Memang busy sgt2 mcm2 kena buat. Buat nu buat ni. Semua nya demi org lain. Demi menjaga hati org lain. Demi menjaga perasaan org lain.
HATI AKU? PERASAAN AKU?
MACAM MANA?
Selamat Malam.
Memang busy sgt2 mcm2 kena buat. Buat nu buat ni. Semua nya demi org lain. Demi menjaga hati org lain. Demi menjaga perasaan org lain.
HATI AKU? PERASAAN AKU?
MACAM MANA?
Selamat Malam.
Monday, 3 February 2014
Miss him a lot!
Almost a month we dont have an official meet. Ya, last Saturday we met at Leka's sister's wedding ceremony. But 2hours wasnt enough for me to release my feel towards him. Ya, feeling of missing someone we loved.
It isnt that easy for us to survive a long distance relationship. If possible, I want him to be by my side at all time. I dont want to be apart from him even for a second.
Mama said that right after he get a permanent job, mama will hand me to him. To be the halal one for me. I really really really want to make our relationship as the Halal one. I want to be a mithali wife to him and a solehah mother to our children. Everyday! Right after I performed solah, I never forgotten to keep praying that we;re meant to be. Moga Allah makbulkan segalanya. He's the best decision Maker. And I know, if you are my jodoh, nobody could separate us. I love you lillah Muhammad Syahmi Syafiq Samsudin.
It isnt that easy for us to survive a long distance relationship. If possible, I want him to be by my side at all time. I dont want to be apart from him even for a second.
Mama said that right after he get a permanent job, mama will hand me to him. To be the halal one for me. I really really really want to make our relationship as the Halal one. I want to be a mithali wife to him and a solehah mother to our children. Everyday! Right after I performed solah, I never forgotten to keep praying that we;re meant to be. Moga Allah makbulkan segalanya. He's the best decision Maker. And I know, if you are my jodoh, nobody could separate us. I love you lillah Muhammad Syahmi Syafiq Samsudin.
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Sunday, 2 February 2014
Good morninggg!
Assalamualaikum everyone!!!
Sobahul khaiyr! Selamat pagi! Good morning! Guten morgen!
Tu ja bahasa yang aku tau. Ekekekeke. Kgedik.
As usual.
Bangun pagi tenyeh2 mata,mengeliat eh jangan mengeliat bila bangun tidoq. Bila perempuan mengeliat ibarat berzina dengan iblis jantan okay and the same goes to the boys.Bila laki mengeliat, ibarat berzina dengan iblis betina. Okaykaykay serammm. Tkmau aku beranak anak iblis.
Bangun pagi gosok gigi cuci muka makan nasi! Ekekeke. Kantoi tak mandi. Haa. Aku memang tak suka mandi pagi. Tak berjenis punya anak dara! Ahhh. Kesah pulak aku. Nanti dh kahwin, aku mandi awai ah. Kngok.
Ni haa morning routines aku:
Sobahul khaiyr! Selamat pagi! Good morning! Guten morgen!
Tu ja bahasa yang aku tau. Ekekekeke. Kgedik.
As usual.
Bangun pagi tenyeh2 mata,
Bangun pagi gosok gigi cuci muka makan nasi! Ekekeke. Kantoi tak mandi. Haa. Aku memang tak suka mandi pagi. Tak berjenis punya anak dara! Ahhh. Kesah pulak aku. Nanti dh kahwin, aku mandi awai ah. Kngok.
Ni haa morning routines aku:
- Bangun tidoq, gosok gigi.
- Bagi anak2 saudara makan.
- Kemas2 meja, hahhhhhh then baru aku makan.
- Settle kan housechores luar dalam depan belakang
- Mesin baju sidai baju
Rehat kejapppppp. Then sambung pulak!
- Besiang ikan udang sotong daging segala macam yg abah beli kat pasar
- Kupas bawang
- Potong sayur
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| Teringat gambar ni masa p shopping and p funfair with my family and love! Hmm. Miss him :( |
Headache!!!!
Allahu Rabbi!!!
Idk why but almost everyday aku sakit kepala. Nak cakap sebab rabun silau ni, aku dah buat spek. Pakai all the time. Hmm. Macam2 dalam kepala otak aku ni. Tumor? Brain cancer? Allahuakbar. Simpang malaikat 44! Aku tak sedia lagi nak harung semua tu. I still have dreams to chase for. Aku teringin nak rasa ada suami ada anak. Nak sangat rasa jadi ibu..
Hmm. Dah tu, bila sakit, my family said that im just pretending that Im sick to avoid from doing housechores. What the........fish? Kalau aku sihat, aku akan buat semua without sighing. Tapi dah aku sakit nak buat mcm mana? Im just an ordinary human. Tau rasa sakit rasa sedih. I do have feeling.....but....no one cares bout it! Its okay. Never mind. I know Allah is arranging the best for me.
Dan....
Kalau Allah nak ambil nyawa aku sekarang, aku redha.
Sebab aku tau.. aturan Allah amat amat amat hebat!
Allahuakbar!
Selamat Malam.
Idk why but almost everyday aku sakit kepala. Nak cakap sebab rabun silau ni, aku dah buat spek. Pakai all the time. Hmm. Macam2 dalam kepala otak aku ni. Tumor? Brain cancer? Allahuakbar. Simpang malaikat 44! Aku tak sedia lagi nak harung semua tu. I still have dreams to chase for. Aku teringin nak rasa ada suami ada anak. Nak sangat rasa jadi ibu..
Hmm. Dah tu, bila sakit, my family said that im just pretending that Im sick to avoid from doing housechores. What the........fish? Kalau aku sihat, aku akan buat semua without sighing. Tapi dah aku sakit nak buat mcm mana? Im just an ordinary human. Tau rasa sakit rasa sedih. I do have feeling.....but....no one cares bout it! Its okay. Never mind. I know Allah is arranging the best for me.
Dan....
Kalau Allah nak ambil nyawa aku sekarang, aku redha.
Sebab aku tau.. aturan Allah amat amat amat hebat!
Allahuakbar!
Selamat Malam.
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| Eh2. Banyak pulak upload selfie malam2 ni. EKEKEKEKE. Jangan marah aaaa. Byeee! |
My New Blog!
Assalamualaikum everyone..
First of all, I want to thank Allah for everything. He always do the best for my life for your life for our life and we all know that. Thanks to him for giving me the chance of creating my new blog. Act I used to have several blogs before this but unfortunately I forgot the password and also the email of those blogs. Hahaha. Ya, Imma very forgetful person and its undeniable.
Im just hoping that this time, my effort of creating new blog will gonna be success. Its not too proper for me to share about my daily life activities and problems through facebook or twitter. So here I am. I create this blog to share about part of my life. Maybe not all. Not the private one. Just the usual one. Inshaa Allah.
So keep supporting me! Thank you.
First of all, I want to thank Allah for everything. He always do the best for my life for your life for our life and we all know that. Thanks to him for giving me the chance of creating my new blog. Act I used to have several blogs before this but unfortunately I forgot the password and also the email of those blogs. Hahaha. Ya, Imma very forgetful person and its undeniable.
Im just hoping that this time, my effort of creating new blog will gonna be success. Its not too proper for me to share about my daily life activities and problems through facebook or twitter. So here I am. I create this blog to share about part of my life. Maybe not all. Not the private one. Just the usual one. Inshaa Allah.
So keep supporting me! Thank you.
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